May 2012
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in some (high school?) science class, and I chose to do my final project on the man who invented Legos. My science teacher told me that I could go to another high school’s science class to learn more because they were also learning about the inventor or something, so I took the address but wound up at someone’s house instead.
An older Asian lady welcomed me in, and as she...
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Last night I dreamed that
My mother was trying to force me into an arranged marriage with LYX. We were screaming at each other in the parking lot because I was fuming that she hated B so much that she would go to these measures because WTF. It was pretty insane.
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Last night I dreamed that
I was on some kind of mission. I was running and hiding in the woods at night. We had snuck onto private property — I was with one other person and a dog(?).
Suddenly, we had been discovered. I heard the pounding of horses’ hooves, and before we could conceal ourselves properly, a group of people on horses came stomping into the clearing, which was littered with fallen leaves. They laughed...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was meeting a friend for dinner at a restaurant, ostensibly in Hong Kong, though potentially Chinatown in the US. It was dark outside. The interiors of the restaurant were all wooden, with long wooden tables. I was seated at the end of one of these tables by another group of diners, next to a middle-aged Asian man.
My dream skipped ahead — after dinner (apparently), I met my friend’s...
April 2012
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Last night I dreamed that
I was a teenager again, living in a house with other people my age. There was a kind of Hunger Games intensity to it, as we seemed to be engaged in some kind of struggle to survive whatever forces were lurking outside the house. We regularly convened in the basement to strategize for the week. It was exhilarating and frightening at the same time, and I felt like I was one of the newbies, unsure of...
March 2012
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in school. It seemed like a mix of college & high school — we had a high level of independence and a few different buildings, but the class structure and the people I saw were mostly from HS.
The details are vague, but I drove to school in a large vehicle that seemed like a van. I was supposed to meet BF at our second class, and we were trying to coordinate by phone. He was running...
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Last night I dreamed that
I GOT PREGNANT WTF!!!!!!!
It was an accident. I almost didn’t even notice; it seemed like I found out and almost immediately went to go have the baby. I knew it would change my life — I’m too young to be a mother! — but what else could I do..?? It was nighttime, and I went to some strange cylindrical building to get it done.
Then later I was going down some kind of weird elevator,...
January 2012
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Last night I dreamed that
I was hanging out in G.O.’s hotel room. The lighting was dim, and we were on his bed. He kissed me on the forehead and called me his “star,” and then went over to the bathroom. I was in heaven. Then I remembered that I had a boyfriend who was in the room across the hall, and I tried to reconcile my tornado of emotions. I have a boyfriend! But G.O. was so adorable and affectionate...
October 2011
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I've been having pretty vivid dreams lately
(especially ones involving beautiful bodies of water) but I’ve been too lazy/busy to write them out. Last night’s dream was pretty great, though, so here it is:
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I was on my way to class. Everybody was traipsing to class through farm fields as if we were in a Miyazaki movie. I went off the beaten path to explore what looked like an abandoned garden labyrinth, but didn’t get...
September 2011
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Last night I dreamed that
I was being attacked by dinosaurs in someone’s house, like we were stuck in a remake of Jurassic Park or something. It was really fucking terrifying. There were big ones that tore through the roof and little ones that raced through the hallways.
It was a big house, so there were lots of places to hide, but they were eventually going to get everybody. I don’t recall seeing people die,...
August 2011
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in a strange new place. It felt like I was back on campus because of the atmosphere and the fact that I saw my friends from school, but nothing looked familiar. Everything I remember is rather fragmented, but a common theme was that the decor of every place I went had the same old-school wooden panel look with high ceilings; it was like the interior design of the ’60s.
I went with my...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was living in a house with some friends. It was kind of an old house, and I guess I had just moved in [or was a very temporary resident] because I had only a bag of clothes with me. The day passed and people came and went from our home, but the memory is a blur.
The next day, I seem to have given birth right inside the house. I didn’t have any recollection of being pregnant, and the baby...
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Last night I dreamed that
There was an alien invasion on Earth. They came down in spaceships, and they were killing/kidnapping people and hunting our resources. What did they want? Our fish. It was the only thing they ate. These aliens looked like giant octopi, bright purple and cartoonish as if some artist in Japan had drawn them. They could take the form of humans, though they were slow and couldn’t jump.
My dream...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in China with my relatives, though it didn’t really look like China. We were just visiting my aunts and cousins randomly and I don’t remember much. There might’ve been a scene with me in bed with two guys and trying to make them take off their shirts…seriously what is with these dreams of infidelity?? I think it means that I miss my bf…good thing I’m...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was making out in bed with one of my friends who happens to be a girl. Ummm what the heck?! Anyway we were just hanging out and lounging around in her fuchsia-tinted room when we kind of rolled over and started kissing on her big bed. I’m not sure I enjoyed it…she’s extremely thin, and I prefer to be in bed with a man, not a bunch of bones, but in my dream it happened anyway.
...
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I hereby promise to call B when I find myself lacking self-control.
July 2011
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Last night I dreamed that
I was walking through a dry plain with a group of people whom I understood to be Somali refugees. It was a hot day as the sun beat down upon us, and we had very little water to complete the journey. They were all given red balloons by our guide, who said that the balloons would provide shade. Interesting. I walked with a very young boy who couldn’t have been older than 10; he carried the...
June 2011
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Last night I dreamed that
I was back at school, and my friends had organized a trip to a fancy new restaurant. It was a buffet, but it was grand to the scale of the casino buffets in Las Vegas. Extremely high ceilings, long windows, fancy cloth-covered tables and an immense food selection.
The restaurant had these special buns [包子] that were red on the outside, presumably red velvet. They looked sooo delicious, but I...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was dating Steve Martin. It was the beginning of our relationship & I was loving it — he was so handsome and entertaining, and we were having a blast at some mall that seemed to be crowded with people from my high school.
In the hallway while standing in line for some mass slide [I guess the escalators weren’t available, or at least not as fun], Julie Kim passed by, and she stopped...
May 2011
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Two nights ago, I dreamed that
I was graduating from college again! Except this time, I was in space — I seemed to be on the moon, for the ground was light grey and rocky, but we were experiencing normal gravity. I was basically stuck there with the rest of the graduating Journalism School, and we sat around in our graduation robes & caps, staring out into the darkness of space and waiting to be called so we could be...
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Last night I dreamed that
BF was finally visiting! We were in my room — I on the bed and he at my desk — when I happened to glance out the window and see a strange scene. The memory is a bit hazy but I think a woman with a dog was running around our backyard chasing what looked like a Christmas elf dressed in a sparkly blue costume. It was hard going for her as the elf apparently had teleportation powers and keep poofing...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in Hong Kong again. I missed the minibus that I was supposed to take to campus, so I somehow commandeered a car and drove up there myself. When I got there, I found JF and KT and some other friends eating watermelon at some outdoor tables. It looked delicious because it was a hot day, but when I looked closer, it turned out they had drenched the watermelon in what looked like Buffalo Wild...
Home Sweet Home!
last time I was home, I was single. lol. with absolutely no thoughts of suddenly tumbling into a relationship. but hey, it happens.
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in a large outdoor playground. The sky was getting dark, but that didn’t keep us from exploring the huge interior of the structure. Once you got near the top, it started looking more like a house built for dwarves.
I hoisted myself up and discovered immaculate bathrooms half the size of normal ones. Once I reached the attic, the playground decor disappeared completely and I entered...
Interracial Dating
Before, I could only imagine myself being with a Chinese guy. Now that I’m dating B, I sometimes think about what I’m missing — we might look of similar ethnicities, but Korean culture is radically different from Chinese-American culture, and although I’m gaining a lot, there is also something that can never be substituted.
Baby I miss you. Even calling me three times a day isn’t enough because I want to be with you all the time.
Sunday May 14
I accidentally packed away my journal, but today was a day of firsts:
.He made me cry .He said I love you .I said I love you too .We were separated by a distance of more than 20 miles
February 2011
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Last night I dreamed that
I was walking into a classroom with one of the guys I suspect of having a crush on me. When we walked in, I immediately spotted G.O. amidst the rows of wooden desks. Somehow we knew each other, although not well. Still, I waved, and being the friendly person he is, he came over to say hi.
G.O. was wearing a sea-green v-neck and looked incredibly attractive. Out of nowhere, a photographer popped...
January 2011
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Last night I dreamed that
I was back in Hong Kong, except I didn’t really recognize anything. I somehow met this old man — he had long white hair, which he kept combed back like Nicholas Cage, and he was kind of round and maybe only 5’8 in height — who developed an excessive interest in me, taking me places and so on.
For some reason, I wasn’t appalled by his appearance; in fact, when he cornered me one...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in some sort of dark, old house. It wasn’t creepy because I was supposed to be spending the night there. As I ascended the wooden stairs to my bedroom, a grey cat came up to me. It joined me in bed, and I happily nuzzled its short fur. It lay on my belly with its warm body and spoke to me with the voice of Salem from Sabrina the Teenage Witch. Somehow, this didn’t surprise me...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was running around in a school building in my pajamas without having even brushed my teeth or hair. There were a lot of people milling about, and I heard that they were having the last part of the Mizzou Idol auditions in the auditorium.
I rushed over to the stage and saw my competitors sitting in folding chairs in a row, waiting for the show to begin. Crowds had already began sitting in the...
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Last night I dreamed that
My family was having dinner in a crowded, dim place not unlike the Children’s Museum I visited last week. The floor was carpeted and the interior was colorful, and the chatter of children surrounded us as we ate.
I suddenly needed to go do something. I wandered around looking for a bathroom and found a large one that had maybe 20 stalls. I was somehow suddenly carrying a space heater with...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in some sort of juvenile detention jail with KW [despite the fact that we are both 18+]. We were in solitary confinement with armed guards, but the facility had soft yellow lighting and carpet like a hotel.
Fortunately, we were about to be released for free time; two guards herded KW and me into the hallway and told us to be back in 20 minutes. We wandered off to the pool, which was a huge...
December 2010
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Last night I dreamed that
There was some kind of emergency in the large corporate building I was in. The floor was shaking and people were scurrying around in panic. Dressed in a grey suit, I began running toward the source of the problem and checked my hands while doing so. On my fingers were nine rings, two of which I discarded while running.
From across the floor I could see a huge alien-esque monster rearing its ugly...
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Last night I dreamed that
There was some kind of item that LC and I wanted, but MN had it, so we devised a plan to steal it from him. In the dead of the night when our parents were all out somewhere, we snuck over to his house (we apparently all lived on the same street), took it secretly, and raced back to her house, which was somehow twice as big as it normally is. Everything seemed to have a golden sheen.
We locked all...
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During an afternoon nap, I dreamed that
I was alone in my house, which didn’t look like my house — it was like a 60s ranch style with fake wood paneling everywhere. I got a call from JF, who told me that he was coming over to make me eggs. I panicked: It meant he was going to get serious about this whole pursuit thing, and I was not interested.
Thankfully, he brought over a whole gaggle of mutual friends, and as they all clanked...
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Last night I dreamed that
my family was at someone’s house for Thanksgiving dinner. I was hanging out with my brother, who was distant as usual but still somewhat amicable. We were exploring the huge house, which he had been to many times, and from the upstairs landing he showed me a spot on the wall where he had thrown something and left a mark.
Our mother called us downstairs for dinner, and I noticed a small...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in a bustling skyscraper café with two friends, one of whom I haven’t seen since high school. We tried to sit down and order food, but the waitress told us that there weren’t any more open tables. Disappointed, my two friends went to the bathroom while I stood around awkwardly, trying not to get in everybody’s way while I kept my eyes on the TV hanging from the wall.
As I...
November 2010
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Last night I dreamed that
I was somehow in a continuation of the previous night’s dream. My family and a bunch of other people from church were gathered in this dark, slightly gothic looking mansion surrounded by a forest. The great chandeliers inside weren’t enough to light giant stone stairway leading up to the front door where people milled about. I stood still, trying to grasp the situation.
From the top...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was onstage, performing a song with TY. He played guitar as we sat on stools in the dimly lit room. Even though we had the songsheets right in front of us, neither of us could remember the songs, and my face burned red as our AAA compadres in the audience looked on, bemused.
In the front row, KL sat next to AA. Her new boyfriend MV sat directly behind her and kept hugging her around the waist,...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was walking through a parking lot in the middle of the day on my way back to my dormitory. The weather was great, though I didn’t recognize my surroundings [Inception, anyone?]. For some reason, I kept getting the urge to spit, so I contributed my saliva to the ground as I strode across the paved gravel.
In the distance, I saw Powpow & her boy walking toward me, and we stopped and...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was helping a fob friend practice drive in in some seedy. unfamiliar part of town. She turned her little sedan onto a small side road next to a car shop, but decided to turn around. Eventually we had to stop practicing because she had to go to some event for her new church.
We parked further away from that area and walked back toward it because apparently that’s where the dinner was...
October 2010
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in some sort of large cabin/camp. A friend and I were resting in our bunk beds when the water level started to rise. We climbed into the top bunks, and the flooding quickly reached the edge of our mattresses. The water had swirls of dark blue, as if tinted by toilet cleaner fluid. After waiting it out, I changed into gym shorts and socks. A cute, young guy passed by my room and caught my...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was talking online with KW while lying on my front in bed. Somehow I was also playing Pokémon at the same time, a new version that I had never seen before. I got sucked into the gameplay for a good half hour, getting lost and beat up, before I remembered that she was telling me something semi-important (as always).
It turned out to just be photos of Minho & Key walking out of a building...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was on my way to a wedding. A friend and her mom were waiting for me outside and my own mom was rushing me out the door but for some reason I kept forgetting EVERYTHING. Dress, shoes, whatever — I was a hot mess. Every time I ran outside before realizing I forgot something, I’d see some kid (a different one each time) playing on our driveway with my big butcher knife. I would kind of stare...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was lying around with T. At least I’m pretty sure it was him. That’s all I remember.
September 2010
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in some sort of huge outdoor playground that served as a daycare-of-sorts for kids. I didn’t see anybody else I knew, so I wandered around the place until I heard somebody crying. A young [white] boy came out of a cabin.
“My mother just left me here,” he said tearfully. My heart melted in pity. “Well why don’t we just play on the swings until she gets...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was going to the spa with TO and EU and some other Korean guy. It was kind of a double date, but nobody said so. TO was obviously into me, and I felt giddy with excitement. When we got there, though, it was closed, so we loitered in the lobby for awhile.
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Last night I dreamed that
I was in some sort of indoor underground retail market with a young kid to look after (don’t know whose). It was nighttime, and the place was quite clean, perhaps even carpeted. After walking to the end, we ended in what looked like someone’s giant basement, which was furnished with couches.
The kid wandered off, and the scene transformed into some kind of family party. We were...
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Last night I dreamed that
I was hanging out in someone’s room with my IV staff worker and a couple other ACF folk. “When are we going to leave?” somebody asked. “Yeah, let’s get going already,” another responded.
We then were transported to some farm scene. A worker was basically teaching a group of tourist/volunteers how to plant seeds in the ground, and we took our seats next to a...